Yakiniku by myself was no good.... I felt the limits of being alone.

Thoughts.

2023.03.092017.01.13

I like to go out to eat alone there.

I'm basically alone in my own shopping and I like to act alone because it's easy.

Of course I like to travel alone and go to karaoke by myself. I don't have to worry about it, and it's the easiest thing to do.

Oh, I think that's how I got used to having lunch alone, because I was basically moving around by myself as a salesman when I started working. At that black company.

Restaurants where I often went alone.

The following are restaurants that I have been going to alone without any stress.

sushi train
family restaurant
beef bowl chain restaurant
curry shop
Karaoke by oneself
one-man movie

I have been able to eat and play alone without any kind of stress (rather comfortable).

I went to yakiniku by myself and felt lonely and empty.

You had been to so many different restaurants that you thought you could handle yakiniku by yourself.

Mysteriously, I had a longing for yakiniku by myself.

You can do everything you want, from the way it is baked to the timing of when it is done. You can do everything as you like, including the timing of baking. And unlike at home, I can do it all by myself! I am eating yakiniku! I can enjoy the taste of

However, I was also somewhat concerned about people's eyes on me, and I was worried about being alone at a yakiniku restaurant, since no one else around me was going there at the time. (I didn't even know that there was such a thing as a restaurant specializing in yakiniku alone.)

But I want to go...

So I ventured there on a weekday evening after work.

Enter the restaurant and get a seat at the counter. And order meat.

On the day of the event, I gathered my courage (laugh) and entered the restaurant, which was quite empty that day.

We immediately ordered meat and beer. Beer is a must, yes.

Then the meat arrives and sizzles quickly.

At this point, after a few seconds of putting the meat on the net, I thought to myself, "What am I going to do until the meat is done cooking?

For some reason, I start to get nervous... I just keep waiting and watching the meat cook.

And because you're only looking at the meat, you gradually start to notice the conversations around you....

And then... the emptiness sets in.The following is a list of the most common problems with the

The meat is finally cooked and I'm going to eat it.

Baked. Let's eat.

The meat is grilled and morsels of it are eaten.

And bake again...

And eat...

And bake again...

And eat...

And bake again...

And eat...

First time in his life, he barbecues alone... and realizes "something is different.

Something... different from my previous meals alone.

I feel unusually lonely. Emptiness, you mean?

I miss taking a pair of tongs, putting down the meat, and sizzling away.

I had never stared at meat for such a long time before because I had friends and conversation while it was cooking.

This time...is somehow...lonely. This blank time is mysteriously empty....

I have found that grilling and eating meat feels empty to me.

Why do you think so?They just eat meat.

I did my own analysis.I thought my thoughts were bad after all.I'm not sure, but maybe.

In my mind, the first assumption was that "eating yakiniku at a yakiniku restaurant = eating with others is common sense" and "people who come to yakiniku alone are lonely people.

And because of my personality, I didn't want people to look at me and say, "Oh, he's here alone...poor guy.

In addition, theThere's nothing wrong with eating barbeque alone.Under those premises, self-denial, "I don't want to affirm or admit that I feel sorry for myself for eating yakiniku alone.

I think the combination of these factors led to feelings of loneliness and emptiness.

I wonder if it's something like this.

I know I'm being a jerk about analyzing it, but I think these are probably what was wrong with me. It's a problem with my thinking.

If you think "I feel sorry for eating yakiniku alone," you may feel uneasy when you eat yakiniku alone, wondering if people will think you feel sorry for eating yakiniku alone.

If you are worried that people might think you are a bad person for doing yakiniku by yourself, it means that you have always thought that people who do yakiniku by themselves are bad people. If you are worried that people might think you are a bad person for doing yakiniku by yourself, it means that you have always thought that people who do yakiniku by themselves are bad people.

I probably had those thoughts, though I hate to admit it.

I thought, "If I don't change this first, I will never be able to have a good time at Yakiniku by myself for the rest of my life.

On the mentality of going to yakiniku alone for the first time in my life

Just a quick aside about my mental state when I went to Yakiniku by myself.

I think he was tired.

At the time, I was a company man, so I was busy at work.working on a day offI was at the level I was at before.

It was also during my time at this company that I debuted my first beer at Pronto at night.

I couldn't have one, but if it was Pronto, I could go. Beer at Pronto after work was impossible before, but at this time I was already thinking, "I want a drink! Even if it's just by myself!" I was like, "I want to drink!

Eventually I left that company on the verge of exploding in a major mental breakdown, so it is clear that I was already exhausted when I went to this one-man yakiniku restaurant.

summary

So the one-person yakiniku was unusually lonely for me.

I have eaten many meals by myself, so I thought I would be able to afford yakiniku by myself, but yakiniku alone was not for me.

Maybe the process of eating alone with tongs and silently putting the meat down? led to a feeling of emptiness for me. under the premise I explained earlier.

So it was a moment when I truly thought that I would only go to yakiniku with my friends.

These are my very personal experiences with one person barbecue.